Not very often, but periodically, I find myself in that uncomfortable space where everything is out of my control for the moment. Not in a bad way, but everything and everyone is in the right place and wheeling forward on their own, but it is just not show time yet. There is nothing for me to push forward or pull backward. I just have to let things be.
That’s a hard thing to do when you are used to doing something. A lot of somethings. All the time.
Right now is one of those times. Shoryuken Ramen pop-up will kick off at 5PM. We opted not to take reservations and it’s a Monday coming off of Thanksgiving weekend. But our press release post got 5,000+ views and more on RVANews.com and our fans tend to be on top of things when it comes to our events. So while I technically do not know what to expect, I know enough to expect both scenarios and prepare as best as I can. That includes channeling the nervous energy in most productive way and refrain from impulsively reacting-- checking on all the team players repeatedly, posting a hundred things on social media and pinging close friends to see if this is on their radar.
It is learning to not react, until the right time. It is also a practice of having faith in your own process that if all things were taken care of in a right manner to this moment, that no action does not mean lack of progress. It is actually giving it time to progress and develop without poking at it constantly.
So this post is an attempt to fill that gap of time somewhat productively; because I’ve already put in five hours of work at full speed and it’s only 10:30AM, because my list is half checked off already and I need to avoid filling the extra time slots with random things to do to avoid feeling uncomfortable if I want to last till 11PM without losing my cool and because I cannot possibly drink more caffeine today.
If I could tell my 25-year-old self anything, I would tell her this. And probably to start running earlier, practice yoga sooner and tell her it was a great idea not to consider having children for the sake of their sanity.
Ugh, it’s only 10:37AM.